BIRTHDAY MESSAGE TO MYSELF

Dear self,

my first picture on wordpress 😉

Tomorrow you will turn 33. It will be a day filled with emotions. Some moments were up and some moments were down but majority of it were bursting with love and joy. self, what i want you to remember most today is that you were loved and you were loved so very well. ☺️

Tomorrow, on my 33th birthday, i wanted to write myself a letter; a letter full of truth and hope. As I celebrated another milestone, I faced one of the hardest lessons in life. That life comes with pain and sadness and we can’t control it. Life doesn’t always work out the way we hope and dream. But I am pretty sure the rolling stone has always have the right timing-you don’t always get what you want, but you will always get what you need.

Aima’s my princess, my life ❤

I just want to thank You God for the priceless gift of life that you have given me, for the 32years of awesome memories, for the wonderful people you have put in my life for 33 years now and for my Family, that i am truly blessed that i have you in my life. No matter what, I know all of you will always be there to guide me all throughout my journey. 😘

Tinna’s besties we held hand throughout this rollercoaster of life journey

For me, my birthday is a time when i remind myself about how much i have to be grateful for. I am still young, I feel so young. There is still so much I have to do, so much I want to accomplish! To become a better person.
I’m excited for this new chapter in my life, but i would be lying if i didn’t acknowledge my sadness. 😟

I almost feel like it’s only now i’m leaving my 20’s. But as what the famous quote says “Age doesn’t matter and age is just a number” for as long as you continue believing yourself.
Realizing my past years, I want to spend quality time with those who mean to me, enjoy precious moments, create life-long memories and have fun adventures.

Tonight when the clock strikes at 12:00MN, i’ll be toasting to an amazing 33years and embarking on the new chapter and adventures of my life.
Cheers to myself for surviving another year! May i have many more wonderful, crazy years ahead of me! Happy Birthday, Me! 🍻🍾🎈🎂

And still I want say, Au revoir to my twenties and bonjour to my thirties! ❤️🙏🎉👸

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Blissful journey

In this lifetime, it has been a privilege to have meet you. Even if you, were never destined to stay. I am thankful, that within our time. The universe allowed my train to stop at your platform.

it waited for you to climb on board and take a seat beside me; even if we only consisted of a short adventure. I’m thankful that this lifetime, allowed you to stop by. Even the journey was only a moment in time.

Though your journey with me, Only consisted of watching the passing world beside us.

To look on, past the windows of the train; With you. Was a blessing, that I shall treasure for eternity.

Beautiful, my love

You’re beautiful, my love

As beautiful as the fading flower.

Just as beautiful as a ball of white snow on my warm hand.

I can feel you melting down.

I can see you slipping away through the gaps between my fingers.

I can see you disappear.

But don’t worry, my love

I’ll carry your memory in my mind,

And let your fragrance occupy my lungs in your absence.

I protected you in ways that I knew, I held you close to my heart and warmed your soul with my unconditional love.

But when you disappeared,

You left me numb.

You’re beautiful, my love

As the beautiful as the setting sun

Which taints the eyes of the sky a deep red when it disappears .

I can feel you stripping the warmth in my heart with your dark and nefarious self,

Leaving me to wither in cold.

But don’t worry, my love .

Just like the larkspurs, I’ll bloom again

And let the wounds you left bleed beautifully.

I adored you in ways that I knew, admired your charm and found the most beautiful words to glory you.

But when you disappeared,

You left me ugly.

musing on quarter night

The tempestuous current in front of us upsets me, I wish there was a way for me to pick it up, pack it in a sturdy ruck sack and toss is somewhere far away, without a single worry for its return.

But I guess that’s not possible.

I guess this is one of the many things we’ve to go through together, whether we like it or not.

There will always be paths we take and choices we make in life that will either break us or make us stronger. I hope that we know and choose the latter .

There is no one to blame.

They Say it’s always easier when there is someone or something to blame. But I can’t blame you and you can’t blame me;

So I guess we end up blaming life and the little cracks in between.

I don’t want you to feel dejected, and despondent. I guess I don’t want to suffocate, and trample you with my stagnant and protective life. I’m sorry I can’t do anything to make you feel better, though I really wish I could.

I guess love just isn’t enough to turn someone’s sunken cheek up, Love isn’t enough to hold two people together

inspite of their differences.

I guess sometimes there’s really nothing much you or anyone can say and do.

I guess time is an enemy we need to learn to use wisely and love. Time is an opportunity to believe, nurture and grow, Time can be a poison as much as it can be a medicine.

I guess hope is not for deluded and the blinded; hope is for the seekers and believers. I guess there will always be a glimpse of hope in this already wrecked life.

Because without hope, we will all lose;

We will all die a little inside.

Sigh (Collaboration with Ahtisham’s)

I wonder……
Will I ever be whole again
How could I….
When a part of me
Has been taken away by you

I wonder…..
Will my eyes ever feel the touch
Of the sun again
How could it be…..
When this rainy season
Seems won’t go away

I wish…….
For you to listen
My silence
I wish……
For you to hear
My inner voice
Calling out your name
Screaming in pain

But….
You keep walking
And never once
You turned to look me in the face
Savagely….
You ripped out my heart
And left me here
To die with your memories

By Ana *—————-*

You wonder…
You are whole with a cute Aimma’s
I lost myself in the tradition of life spam

Why you wonder when i am always in you
How can you vanish me when you know the rain will slip out me away from your pupil garden

I can listen & wish could do as well to fulfill your inner most wishes so will never scream again

I been always there for you yet you watched how i walk away
If i ripped out your heart you know that was never my wish

I never wanted you to die with My memories

By Ahtisham

Pictures by unknown

nebulous

She sits on the escarpment of time, with the wind of her past hitting on her back, wishpering into her ears; supplicating her to learn from its mistakes, while giving her a reassurance that it will help her step forward.

But the view in front of her is nebulous, concealing her path from her eyes that seek to make sense of future; the destiny they are unsure of.

Yet there is thrill to the discovery of oneself, of all the experiences to have and emotions to feel.

Her heart sing as she jumps of the precipice, inspirated by the parachute of her present, of the world she has built, that promises to take her gently to the landscapes and vistas slowly reveiling themselves beneath her feet.

Modern fairy-tale

And the Princess fell in love with herself.

And she had her own castle.

And she won her own battles.

And she was known as the most fearless and mightiest queen in the kingdoms far beyon the seas.

This was the modern fairy-tale.

Dedicated to all you brave princess out there who are fighting through all the bettles of life on their own.

Remember, even if it seems you can’t lean on anybody, you should still stop once in a while and take rest to gather back your strength.

(Pictures by unknown)