In all honesty you never left, not really.
You’re here, you’re here, you’re here. You’re always here; tucked right between these letters, caressing my fingers as they tap on this screen to complete yet another piece about you. You never left me. And I want you to leave so badly, because I cannot keep you anymore. All I have with me, all you are to me now, is a ghost; Someone long gone I shouldn’t be keeping around as company.
I used to beg for your time, when all you wanted was space. Then you started complaining about distance, so I begged for a chance to explain. I used to beg for everything I shouldn’t have had to. You made me beg because all I used to want was your presence, your choice to stay. But now, all I really want is to get rid of your specter, send all your memories away. And if I could beg you to leave, I would. But what use is pleading when it has never worked anyway?
You’re here, you’re here, you’re here. You’re always here. I’m not going to ask you for anything, but I just really need peace. I’m getting sick of this joke you’re playing with me. Maybe this was the choice you’ve made all along– to stay. To haunt me forever as my favorite mistake.
Artwork By Dante Orpilla